My Motivation and Why I Suck at Writing

Motivating myself to write can sometimes be a chore. Okay, a lot of the time it’s a chore. I find myself thinking up all these wonderful ideas to post about or create stories about; but when it is time to actually start writing I find myself saying “I’ll do it later, when it feels right.” It often reminds myself of when I was a smoker, I would always say “this is my last pack, after this I’m done,” which if anyone who used to smoke or knows someone who does smoke is quite aware that is probably the most frequent lie we smokers tell ourselves. But unlike smoking, writing isn’t harmful to your body. Actually now that I think about it, with the amount of great writers that have either died poor with just the shirts on their back or with an alcohol problem or both that last statement may also be a frequent lie.

For me, I have found I honestly have no motivation to write pieces that don’t connect with me, even then it is difficult to start writing thanks to that discouraging blinking vertical line every word processor has.


Honestly, can we just take a second and realize it would make life much easier if instead of it being a wall to your potential progress it were a horizontal line inviting you to continue writing? I mean how hard can it be to change that?

For me, I think I have to start making it a habit I write every day for at least an hour, no excuses, no more pushing it to next Tuesday, I just sit down and write. Now what I write about is probably going to be utter horseshit but at least I am making it a habit that I write. One of my favorite quotes from Macklemore’s album The Heist is from his song “Ten Thousand Hours.”

“The greats weren’t great because at birth they could paint

The greats were great ‘cause they paint a lot”

The whole song is taken from Malcolm Gladwell, who he mentions in the song, and his “10,000-Hour Rule” from his book Outliers: The Story of Success which basically states that in order to become successful in anything you have to put in 10,000 hours. And doing the math that is just over 416 straight days. And in order for me to be an “expert” if I write 1 hour a day it will take me over 27 years. But with my time I have spent writing on my own, around high school, I will round down to between 20-25 years.

Honestly, I am probably going to go ahead and say that it is absolutely ridiculous to think I will ever manage to get 10,000 hours into anything. So like most writers, I will take this nice theory and mend it so it works for me, which is essentially what I have stated before:

Make it a habit, and it will only get better.

Whether or not you will see my daily writing is still in the air, who knows, maybe I will post once a week all the crap I write into a post for those who are really bored. Then again, I may only show you the ones that aren’t too personal.

Perhaps this is what I meant when I said I wanted to create consistent content.

As always, thank you for reading and I hope to bring you more soon.


Featured image can be found at Aisha’s Scrapyard.

Left Brain, Right Brain

When two worlds collide, we often think of it a catastrophic, but what if it is something unique and rare, like catching lightning in a bottle? I was watching Bo Burnham’s latest show “what.” (which is you haven’t watched yet go watch it) and came across a really interesting piece called “Right Brain, Left Brain” which I have placed below.

This is by far my favorite piece by Bo in this one-man-show he’s distributed for free, and here’s why: it speaks to me on a very personal level.

First off, I am sure not everyone understands the feud his left and right brain have in this bit. My best explanation is this, have you ever thought of making something or creating something but immediately thought the task be too daunting or “not good enough” for others to see? Have you ever had dreams or goals that you talked yourself out of simply because you told yourself it wouldn’t happen no matter what? That is your right brain, the creative side filled with emotions and aspirations being combatted by your left brain which is analytical, logical, and looks at things from perspective of everything else and calculates just how small you really are and how big your dreams compare.

In Bo’s battle between his emotional side and his analytical side there is a definite feud. For him, it is his productivity and his emotions, for me it is pretty similar though I haven’t been nearly as busy as him, my MTV show and book publishing is next month. Then there is the deeper discussion he brings up a little more subtly, which is his unhappiness with his work, how his analytical side got in the way of his creativity. I can definitely tell you that I have had my analytical side, my fears and my discontent for my work fighting me every inch I take towards creating something. The amount of projects I have scrapped out of sheer discouragement from myself is countless. But it seems my left brain keeps coming up with more things to think about, to write about and to observe, and my right brain takes these observations I make and begins to morph it into something creative.

In the end, Bo shows that he makes both sides of his brain to come together and create comedy, to analyze  and be creative together. It makes sense, and honestly it seems kind of universal for a lot of people; if you have a job or career that requires even a little creativity it makes sense it take both sides of ones brain to make the best idea. This is where things deviate for me and Bo, as comedy isn’t my avenue of choice, for me it’s primarily writing. Perhaps that may change in time but I think for right now it is making pretend in my mind and spitting it out onto paper, or in this case a computer screen,  that gets my creativity flowing and my analytical side working to make sure I don’t go off the deep end. It’s checks and balances for me, like Congress but I get a tad more done than them.

For those who are reading this and can’t figure out what gets both sides of their mind to work together and play nice it is never too late to find it, so keep working on it. For those who do know and haven’t been utilizing both, it is never too late to start. And for those who haven’t watched Bo Burnham’s great show “what.” go see it now, it’s free after all.

As always, thank you for reading and I look forward to seeing you again in my next post.


Featured image from Huffington Post.

Filling the Void

I was once told by someone to never stop creating. To always keep at it even if it is shit. I think they were wrong by saying that. If everyone created something whether it be art, film, videos, writing, even GIFs, etc. we would have so much to sift through just to find some mediocre stuff let alone those hidden nuggets of gold covered in dirt and grime. However I may be wrong about that with things like Tumblr, Reddit, and many other places for people to show what they have done and basically leave the sharing to others. I know for me I only see what goes on the front page of Reddit and hardly look at the new stuff posted that hasn’t been sifted through yet. While Reddit is something I would love to go over and talk about it is merely I rambling without actually talking about what I want to talk about today.

I have explained in my previous post that I wanted to create consistent content, to have new stuff to say each week. My good friend Adam Duke and his Blogspot webpage reminded me that consistent content is not always a good thing. He reminded me that I have such passion to say something consistently that I forget to even think about what the content itself would be. The image that I created in my head when I was thinking about this was of me standing in the middle of a crowded park with others, standing on a soap box saying something along the lines of “I will be here every week, come see me! I will have no idea what I will be saying but at least it will be consistent!” Needless to say that doesn’t sit well with me.

While this may seem obligatory, it is Martin Luther King Jr. Day and I can’t help but think of him on a day like this while I write on a subject like this. MLK was always a man who spoke eloquently and captivated people every time he spoke. He had a message for each speech he gave. While his message may be something more broad and much more pressing than my inability to grasp with the harsh reality of life that there are no definitive answers, I can see some similarities. I feel like I may be coming off a little dickish here but I think for me I have to not only think about what I want to write about before posting something, I need to just think before I speak in general.

Blogging for me always seemed the path of least resistance. I have always felt writing to be one of my strong suits in my early adult life and being able to just pour out what I am feeling sounded great for me, but perhaps not so much for others to read. Now I know blogging isn’t always about having people read your stuff and sometimes it is just a way to externalize your thoughts and save them for later. But if I am going to do this it makes sense for me to keep the few readers that come for each post I make in mind when publishing. And while keeping them in mind it seems that I am a quality over quantity kind of guy. It simply makes no sense to spout out weekly posts of nonsense or mediocre bullshit when I can post twice a month of stuff I am proud to bring out for others to see.

So for those who are upset I won’t be posting regularly, I would call you a liar for actually claiming you cared, then I would explain that this is actually for the best for not just me but you as well; primarily because your investment in Aleve for the headaches I would be giving you will be significantly less. With that in mind, I am sure your head is screaming in agony by the fact that I just compared MLK Jr. to myself to basically explain what a ten-year-old girl could tell me; this may be one of the most pathetic blog posts ever.


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A New Year, Not So New Thoughts

When a new year comes your Facebook and Twitter feeds usually blow up with celebratory posts and resolutions made public by your friends and family. For me, it is the same as it always is, create consistent content in some form. Which has really never been accomplished for more than a few weeks at a time. Over my holiday break, away from my university, I have had the chance to really think about myself and my personal philosophy on numerous topics.

What really got me was how I seem to always be behind my peers. After all it is January 5th and I am still writing a post about the new year! But if you want a more sufficient example I can give you two off the top of my head:

  1. It took me half of my high school career to actually do my work and to stop fighting my teachers on whether or not what I am learning is worth my time (I started my junior year with a 2.11 GPA and graduated High School with a 2.63).
  2. It took me four years in college to make it to the Dean’s list and stop battling myself on things like whether I am making the right decision about my life; and to just focus on the objective in each class.

I also found late in 2013 that I physically and emotionally feel better when I am creating and making something I can show others. Some times it is a video, other times a blog post, but it seems the medium in which I show my work never really affects the amount of joy I get when I finish something; and when I saw the Success 2014 video by D.Respect I immediately understood what he was saying. It also validated what I had previously discovered. It also energized me and, much like his Success 2013 video, kept me going during the beginning of the year. I just hope this one will keep me diligent throughout the majority of the year.

I understand why people make resolutions, and start each year with big plans, but I don’t want to become a statistic of the new year and not make my resolution. Which is why I plan on making something each week and posting it here on my blog. Whether it is a simple blog post, a review, a video, or a combination of both I plan to consistently post on here at least once a week. I am hopeful to post twice a week, one of the creation itself and another explaining my process and other things as well that involves the piece. But I need your help.

I need suggestions on what you want me to talk/write about. I know I posted previously about my categories I plan on writing about, but I am not a news machine and sometimes topical stories that would be perfect for me to talk about get past me. So either tweet at me (@jefferydperry) or leave a comment below my latest posts on what you want to see from me next.

Until next time, I hope you all also keep up with your new year’s resolutions and I will see you all next time, which will be in one week or less.


Defining My Blog

Hello Everyone,

When I first started blogging I wanted to allow anyone to read what was on my mind, stories about my life, and really anything else that intrigues me. I still think that is the case. This site is as much for others to read as it is for me to write. I am not doing this only to gain followers and become “internet famous.” This is a place for me to just let things on my mind out, and if others are interested, cool. However, I realized I have no “topic” of what exactly I plan to write about on this fresh site. Most bloggers have a “topic” they focus on, some home cooking, tips and tricks, some national news, and others with their writing; for me it’s not that simple. With a blog titled “Jeff’s Public Journal” it makes sense that I make this a much more personal blog than others out there.

With that in mind, I have constructed a list of categories I plan to include in this site, it also has sub-categories within the categories to better define what exactly it is I mean with each category. The list is as followed:

  • Technology
    • Tech news
    • New Apps/Updates [iOS & Android]
  • Video Games
    • Achievements
    • Games I’m Playing
  • Journal/Writing
    • Projects in Progress
    • Books [I am reading]
    • Lists (top 10, tips, etc.)
  • Topical
    • News Stories
    • Editorials
    • “Viral Videos” on the Rise

Of course, this is just a skeleton list, and more may be added as I see fit. However, I think this is a great place to start when it comes to defining what my blog is about. The reasoning behind the four main categories of Video Games, Technology, Journal/Writing, and Topical is simple: it is what I am interested in that can appeal to others. I could talk about changes in the medical field, politics, or farming techniques and how they have changed over the last few decades, but I am simply not interested in those topics enough to post regularly about. I am also very much open to requests as well as comments on my work so feel free to leave a comment on my posts or tweet at me @jefferydperry with your requests/comments.

Thank you for reading, and don’t forget to subscribe/follow my blog by clicking on the sidebar if you want more!


Diligence with Creativeness

Coming home for the holidays as a college student is always an interesting time. As someone who doesn’t usually work over the holidays I find myself alone (both of my parents work) and often bored. I got to thinking, and it seems to me that when you have no obligations and nothing required from you that is when you can tell who you are. If you sit on your ass all day doing nothing but eating potato chips and drink down soda then you may not have as much productivity as someone who is writing a novel or a short story series. I use these specific examples because I have been in both situations this week alone.

I have come to the conclusion that I need to be more diligent on my creative process and make it something in my daily routine. I plan to focus much of my creative e

I would go into depth about what exactly I am working on, as my excitement pours out of me rapidly, but thanks to this reddit post which says that telling people your goals chemically tells your brain that you “accomplished” your goal and thus making your drive deplete and you less likely to actually achieve it. When you think about it, it really makes sense. I mean, I can talk all day about how I want to be this or that but unless I am actually in the middle of doing it I will most likely say to myself that telling people is good enough; that I can put it off for another day or two, which eventually becomes two years and I still have nothing but scrap paper from when I originally had the will and drive to work on it.

So, I guess this is a perfect time where journaling comes into play. Whether or not this is something I will be doing as frequently as actually creating is entirely based upon how much time I have and how determined I am at publicizing my progress. Don’t get me wrong, I love to talk about my accomplishments as much as the next guy, but going back to the previously mentioned reddit post, I think it may be better for me to keep it internalized until I am done with whatever it is I am working on.

So, until next time, I will be isolating myself to create one hour a day. No cell phone, tablet, TV, or video game will stop me from getting this done. I have nothing but encouragement from those I do talk to about this, and I don’t want to let them down. But most of all, I don’t want to let myself down anymore either. Creating has been nothing but enlightening and I find that I am more relaxed, more energized, and all around less of an asshole when I am on a roll with my writing or my work.  It only makes sense that I continue working on what makes me feel better, even if it is a little difficult at times.

Wish me luck, and if you plan to take the plunge and start creating on a regular basis as well, maybe we can chat some time. Just leave a comment below and I will be sure to get back at you. Thank you for reading, and I hope to start journaling more regularly as well, so subscribe/follow my blog either by email or by WordPress (just check the sidebar).